Had I known this was the last inversion I could practice, I would have asked my students to take pictures!
And glue them in the family albums, so the kids could have a proof of how strong I once was.
I have discovered Iyengar yoga in Hanoi and fell in love with the practice. Especially for all its variations of inversions. Hanging like a bat on the wall or head in between chairs, I would be the first one to take the ropes the moment our teacher would say the magic words “sirsasana, any variation you feel like doing today“.
The love feeling did last a few months. Until this evening I could not lie down in bed. My head was spinning non stop, I felt nauseous, totally out of control. It lasted for a while, I couldn’t tell how long it took before I could calm down and totally collapse in bed, exhausted.
The good news is that BPPV is much more fear than harm. But it is lots of fear.
I am good now, touch wood!
But yoga wise, no more inversion for me. No more position with my head down “that would jeopardise your sense of balance” – as my osteo said, like all the head stands; even this brave down dog is off limits. Adios Surya namaskar and its cousins.
Limited Yoga Teacher.
Took a while for my ego to digest the news.
To finally practice what I preach: listen to your body. Be humble. Do you good. Be your best friend. Your body needs you, treat it with love and care and respect.
I know, it is not the end of the world and many people live happily ever after without even knowing the meaning of “pincha” and I would give up on any sport if I had the guarantee that it would vaccinate me of any vertigo.
Honestly I am not yet sure whether I would practice as often as I used to. This crisis made me remember how bad I had felt after a day of inversions during my Yoga Teacher Training. I never experienced such headaches before. I did not pay more attention though, had a massive dose of paracetamols, and totally collapsed to bed. First thought in the morning was “Give me a few weeks and I’ll nail this Scorpio!”.
This episode taught me one thing: pay attention to your body. Only bad teachers will push you hard and over adjust you. If you listen to your body more than your ego, it will tell you when it has enough. One of my favorite yoga teachers used to say “no pain no gain translated in yoga is Bullshitasana“.
Don’t look at yoga in a Instagrammable way. There are counter indications, yoga can be bad to your health. There are many poses absolutely forbidden for people with high or low blood pressure, ear or eyes conditions. To name a few. Yoga can be therapeutic, for sure. As long as you remember that you only are the pilot of your body.
I have been off the mat for about a month. I can’t get myself to go back yet, unless I do yin or restorative. I need a bit of time to adjust, to trust my practice again. It will come back, in a different and probably more fulfilling way.
I have a chance to work on Trust and Letting go from a different perspective 🙂