The terrifying shadow of the Coronavirus has shut down the schools for the 6th consecutive week (and still counting).
I am becoming an expert at homeschooling and therefore at deep abdominal breathing. Stuck in between the kids lessons and the apocalyptic news from the rest of the world, I can’t even tell what day is today.
My yoga teaching agenda had been so full those last months that I couldn’t remember the last time I attended a live class. We had just arrived in Hoi An, and I couldn’t wait to be a student again!
As I was unrolling my mat in the serene Nomads Yoga Studio, I realised how much I needed to practice. Naively, I thought that the speed of the upcoming Vinyasa class would act as an anesthesia to my restless mind and would sweat the stress out of my system. Big mistake!
The teacher immediately announced that his peak would be Hannuman (split). I felt my teeth grinning to the mere name of the monkey. A pose I am not friend with to say the least. I felt the little pinch of annoyance bursting out of control when he instructed malasana and eventually the infamous crow pose. The latter pose is a real challenge to me. It has always eluded me. I understand it on a pure teaching level, but I don’t feel it, it irritates me.
Gripping my fingers in the mat to come closer to the crow, I suddently realised that the sequence was playing my current feelings.
For weeks now, since the schools have closed, I have grown in a solitary place of homeschooling I am not confident with, far out of my confort zone, with the anxious feeling of being stuck here for ever.
That’s when it happened. The mental switch. Life is not always yang, strenghth and control. What if this precise moment was a chance to consciously move to a yin phase and finally practice non attachment ?
There are so many things to take in a pose. If I don’t want the arm balance today, then I can always focus on my spine. Malasana is not only about hip openers but also about extending the spine. We can play the same music but with different instruments. After all, it’s all about being curious and finding excitement in the change of perspective.
The hip openers were a necessary, and I am so glad I was encouraged to practice them . It helped me release all my stucked emotions and the monkey finally made me smile. I could feel him winking at me. Those times are unique and need to be appreciated too. We don’t need to wait for everything to fall into place to find peace. We must first find peace, then everything will fall into place.
This class was fantastic. It challenged me in a very good way as it spoke to my body and my mind at the same time. It made me feel in charge again. This is what yoga does.
Kids approved too !
I must add that the class did not only do good to me! But also to my 2 super excited yogis of 7 and 9. Leandre made friend with a couple of professional male yogi and felt so happy not to be the only boy in the place ! He felt so encouraged that he attended its first 75mn vinyasa class without a single glance at me or the clock.
His sister was in the exact same mood. Being among other kind adults yogi, with a challenging yet very sweet teacher. For the first time in weeks, I could finally practice in silence, being totally into the class.
Big Thanks to Tylor and India for sharing your practice with us. We feel so fortunate to practice with you, to have found our quiet place to work in and out in Hoi An. Namaste!